He put out this statement
, and here are a few excerpts:
I’ve become a symbol. I don’t want to be a symbol, responsible for something huge that I don’t understand, that I don’t want to work on, that keeps coming back to me. I’m not an entrepreneur. I’m not a CEO. I’m a nerdy computer programmer who likes to have opinions on Twitter.
As soon as this deal is finalized, I will leave Mojang and go back to doing Ludum Dares and small web experiments. If I ever accidentally make something that seems to gain traction, I’ll probably abandon it immediately.
...I’m also aware a lot of you were using me as a symbol of some perceived struggle. I’m not. I’m a person, and I’m right there struggling with you.
I was sitting in my "satellite office" (P. Terry's) reading his statement, and the song playing in the background was Pink Floyd's "Wish You Were Here" (one of my very favorites). So I was reading, but I also heard this:
Did you exchange a walk-on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?
I know this is going to sound odd for someone who just sold a game for 2.5B, but I've always felt a kind of sympathy for Notch. Jerry Holkins and Mike Krahulik created Penny Arcade, and it's become so vast that it's hard to even conceive, but it happened over a period of years. The relative speed was tremendous, but not so great that they became unmoored. Minecraft, though, was different. Notch created a tiny thing that became so vast he was almost entirely swept away.
There are certainly people who court fame, who desire everything it brings. For someone who never sought it, though, fame can be incredibly destructive. If anything I did ever became remotely "big", there is no way I could handle it properly. I'm too furtive to stand in the center.
I wouldn't walk away. I would run.
Here's another part of his statement:
I was at home with a bad cold a couple of weeks ago when the internet exploded with hate against me over some kind of EULA situation that I had nothing to do with. I was confused. I didn't understand.
A few weeks ago, someone who said they were a long-time reader of DQ wrote to me. In elaborate detail, he told me that I used to be good but now I sucked, and I wasn't worth reading anymore. I understood that--actually, I share his feeling to some degree, and I've written about that before--but his anger was so personal, like he wanted to punish me with his words.
This was just one e-mail, but man, his intensity shook me. I accepted that when I decided to make a game (seriously, how did that ever work out?) the blog was going to suffer, but I didn't want to stop, so I didn't. I still don't want to stop. I'm just going to write and people can read what they want.
That's a long way of saying that to be in the public eye, even in a very small way, requires a kind of armor that some people don't have. I don't think Notch has it, and I think he was smart enough to understand that and get out before it destroyed him.
I'm not talking about Minecraft as a franchise, or what it means now that Microsoft owns the game (well, here's a one-word comment: ick). I'm just talking about one guy writing code in his apartment late at night, thrilled by what he's creating, not realizing what is going to happen to his life.
We're light on quantity this week, but extremely high on quality.
I'm leading off this week with a very serious link from Jim Bradley that some of you might find disturbing, so please be warned. Here's a description:
A video released online by the family of a man killed in a crash is gaining traction for what it’s doing for motorcycle safety awareness.
38-year-old David Holmes was killed in a crash in England. He was wearing a helmet cam when he crashed his bike into a car. He was going 97 mph hour at the time.
Holmes’s family has released the video in hopes to warn both bikers and motorists will be more attentive when driving.
Here's the link: Family’s emotional video shows shocking fatal crash; Goal is to raise awareness
And now, because that was a disturbing video and very difficult to watch, I'm going to follow it up with the silliest link of the week, just to even things out: Lil Baby Bear Has Itself A Good-Ass Time On A Golf Course
From Sirius, and this is a spectacular find: Dreadnoughtus: The Behemoth dinosaur that makes the Tyrannosaurus rex look puny
From C. Lee, and this images are fantastic: 48 Unexpected Views Of Famous Historic Moments
From Meg McReynolds, and this is fascinating: The 100 Books Facebook Users Love
. Also, and these pictures are amazing, it's Striking Aerial Photos Show the Unfathomable Hugeness of Industry
From Marc Klein, and this is a terrific read: The Simple Technology That Accidentally Ruined Baseball
From Jonathan Arnold, and sadly, this is no surprise: Just Six Months After the Olympics, Sochi Looks Like a Ghost Town
This is the longest title ever, but it's a great read, and the title explains it all: The Escape Artist: West Virginia frat boy, hippie expatriate, big-time drug dealer, prison escapee, millionaire mortgage broker—Jim Sargent was many things before he arrived in the idyllic Hawaiian town of Hawi and established himself as a civic leader. But it was only a matter of time before his troubled past would catch up with him.
Ending this week, from Steven Davis, and this is a long and utterly brilliant article: JEFF HENRY, VERRÜCKT, AND THE MEN WHO BUILT THE GREAT AMERICAN WATER PARK
I don't get it.
I haven't worn a watch in fifteen years, at least. I have a phone. It tells the time. It does all kinds of nifty things. Why do I want another device that performs a subset of functions of the device in my pocket?
People send e-mails explaining why the watch is cool. I read them very carefully, and when I'm finished, I immediately say, "I don't get it."
Fitness tracker? Why do I need a fitness tracker? I know that when I've reached a certain level of fatigue in a workout--fatigue that is easy to fell--then I've had a good workout. I'm a big data person, but do I need minute by minute data about my workout? No.
If I want to know how I'm recovering from workouts, or whether my workout routine is working, all I need to do is take my resting pulse when I wake up in the morning. That gives me every piece of information I need.
Notifications? Doesn't my phone already do that?
Can it replace my phone? No way. And if it can't, all it does is riff on the existing functionality of my phone.
If Apple (or anyone else) can sell a smartwatch in volume, then they can truly sell anything. This is the ultimate test case for marketing and brand over functionality.
Through the Front Window
I'm probably not going to write about this anymore, but here's a very easy way to see what's really happening in the Ray Rice/NFL situation: read Peter King.
Peter King, even though he's a respected journalist, is a mouthpiece for the NFL, and whatever the NFL wants to present, he will do it for them.
You have to read a bit between the lines, though.
Here's how you interpret what King writes: whatever he says, that's the desired position for the NFL. It's the NFL establishing its borders. So a few months ago, he said that the NFL had seen the tape, and he used it in the context of finding support for a two-game suspension of Rice.
A few days ago, he changed his tune, and said he had been "told by sources", not the NFL, that the tape had been viewed, and that couldn't actually prove it had been viewed. This was to support the NFL suddenly going from a two-game suspension to an indefinite suspension.
Here's what King wrote today
The sense I got after talking to six prominent team executives Wednesday night was that Goodell’s job would be in trouble only if he was found to have participated in a coverup of the Rice investigation, or if he lied about never having seen the videotape of the former Baltimore running back’s assault of his then-fiancée Palmer in an Atlantic City elevator last February.
What he's writing is not exactly what it means.
What it really means is that the NFL is hoping to draw a line with the public that it's reasonable to retain Goodell unless he participated in a cover-up. That's not what the NFL would have said two days ago--Goodell's possible removal wouldn't even have been mentioned--but the news yesterday that a "female NFL executive" had left a voicemail indicating that she had received and viewed the footage moved the borders.
Here's the most important takeaway, though: NFL executives are now acknowledging a potential situation where Roger Goodell would be damaging "the shield", as they call it. In the NFL, damaging the shield is unforgivable. This clearly means that his support right now is very shaky. He may survive, but he is clearly at high risk here.
One other thing: the phrase "domestic violence" needs to go away. It's such a sanitized term. It's almost as if the term itself was created to neutralize an emotional response to men beating women (and, in considerably rarer cases, vice versa). Maybe this would be more important, and the legal system's responses more appropriate, if the words used to describe "domestic violence" incidents were more visceral.
In Shocking News
Well, to absolutely no one's surprise, the NFLs transparently obvious lie has blown up in their faces today. Details: Report: NFL Received Ray Rice Video in April
Of course they did. To somehow believe they hadn't, we'd have to believe that one of the most ruthlessly efficient organizations in the world was--just in this one case--incompetent buffoons, investigating the case with all the skill of the Three Stooges.
The next domino, since there's very solid evidence that an NFL executive did see the tape, is that someone below Goodell will take the fall and resign.
This isn't going to go away, and it shouldn't.
Optomap (your e-mail)
I wrote last week about the Optomap, a device that takes a high-resolution image of your eye. The next day, I received this e-mail from Chris Price:
I’m all for the Octomap. My wife is Type 1 diabetic and needs to get one of these every year. I typically didn’t bother ($30 is $30), but she encouraged me to get it done a couple of years ago.
Note, this is after the exam, and like your experience, I was told I didn’t need to be dilated with it. I remember my Doctor looking a the image, and repeating all the questions about floaters and flashes that she’d asked 20 mins earlier during the exam.
Intrigued, I asked what she’d seen and she showed me a picture that clearly had a large blister in the lower left. The poor Doctor was a little freaked out and sent me immediately off to a Retina specialist. They took one look, take a bunch of their own pictures and shoot a laser into the back of my eye - thanks…
Turns out it was a retina schesis (one of the things on the poster)--textbook case and unusual size. Over the next year, I end up being dilated every quarter and after a weekend of being pulled behind a boat on a lake, the schesis grows and needs another bout of Star Wars “pew pew”.
The next conversation with the retina Doctor is a “When your retina detaches”, not an “If” and we decide to fix it once and for all. Do a search for Vitrectomy for the details - but it’s where they suck the gel from your eye and place a gas bubble in for a while. It took 3 months for the gas to dissipate--for a while it's like looking through a fish bowl. Part of the recovery was to keep the eye dilated 4 times a day for a month--now that was a pain in the arse.
Anyway, all is good now - vision returned to 20/25 as my pupil doesn’t contract as well as it should. I’m told it’s because they’re blue and it takes a little longer.
Long message to simply say that the Octomap is well worth the money. The regular exam completely missed the problem and I’d be at risk of a sudden detachment without it. I’d recommend any of your readers to get it done.
So this is definitely a thing, and it may catch problems that otherwise might be missed.
The NFL and Ray Rice
Really, this makes me so angry that I don't even want to write about it. I think there's a point to be made, though, that other people don't seem to be making.
If you don't live in the U.S., here's a quick summary. Baltimore Ravens running back Ray Rice was in an Atlantic City casino with his fiancee. They argued outside an elevator. They stepped into the elevator, continued the argument, and Rice knocked her out with a straight left.
Until yesterday, the public had seen the video outside the elevator, but not what happened inside the elevator. What was particularly incredible, maybe even more so than the punch, was that after he knocked his fiancee out and she's unconscious on the floor of the elevator, Rice doesn't pay any attention to her. He's not checking on her condition, even though she's unconscious. It's horrifying in every conceivable way.
When this video broke on TMZ yesterday, the NFL was very quick to take action. The Ravens cut him, and the NFL suspended him indefinitely. The NFL also issued a statement saying that when they issued the original two-game suspension to Rice, they had never seen the footage inside the elevator, only the outside footage.
This is 100%, absolute bullshit.
The NFL has a security operation that would make the FBI blush. Actually, quite a few of the operatives in that operation are ex-FBI agents. They would clearly have had a longstanding relationship with local and state police in one of the most prominent casino cities in the country. They are 100% hooked up.
So when the NFL says they "asked for all relevant footage" and weren't given the video, that's an absolute lie. Roger Goodell is a control freak. The NFL is a bulldozer when it comes to these kinds of investigations. There's no way they would decide that their investigation could be completed without that footage.
Rice's defense attorney had a copy of the footage, but the NFL didn't?
It is entirely implausible to think that the NFL didn't see the footage. Of course they did.
What IS the most plausible scenario? It's not complicated. The NFL, in collusion with other parties, attempted to bury the video. They were certain that the footage would never be seen. Then TMZ blew them up yesterday, and they had to take action.
If Roger Goodell saw this footage--and in all likelihood, he did--he should resign. That probably won't happen, though. What will most likely happen is that some underling will suddenly admit to having seen the footage, not sending it further up the NFL food chain, and he will resign instead.
The fall guy.
This entire episode is just sickening.
Gridiron Solitaire #121: Marketing
1.2 was released Thursday afternoon, and the response has been very positive. Difficulty was reduced on Rookie level, plus a custom difficulty option was added, and that should make it possible for everyone to find the right degree of difficulty for them.
I made a mistake in putting 1.1 together. I wanted to make the game more realistic--and I did--but I also inadvertently made it less playable for some people. Bad move. So with 1.2, the high degree of realism is still there for people who want it, but for the non-hardcore players, it's much more accessible.
Plus, the new changes and features are a nice addition. Goal line stands are much more possible now, presentation has been improved with the halftime/end of game "TV style" box score, and the new team museum is interactive and absolutely full of information.
There are still a few minor things I'd like to do (adding selectable weather profiles when a user changes a default team name, for one), but essentially, the game is complete. It's done. Instead of building out content, I'll be doing maintenance updates to fix all reported bugs, and really, the number of bugs is very small.
So let's turn our attention to marketing.
Quite a few of you e-mailed me since the game launched and wanted information on the marketing process, but hell, I had no information to give you, because I wasn't actually marketing the game.
Well, that's changing now.
GS is a unique game, and it has extremely long-term play value. Instead of making a game to fit a certain market, I just made the game I really, really wanted to play. In any kind of economic sense, this was insanity, but I also have an affection and commitment to the game that I wouldn't have otherwise. So even though I really don't like the marketing aspect--at all--I'm going to work at this. Hard.
Here's the order I'm going to work with:
I know how popular and important YouTube is for getting a game attention. And I have a terrific list of just about everyone (thank you, Brightside Games
), but I don't want to spam these guys. So here's a request: if any of you have watched a YouTube gaming channel and remember seeing them talk about sports games, would you please let me know?
The list has about 500 channels, and I'm going through them and seeing if any of the posted videos refer to sports, but it's going to be slow going.
2. Gaming websites
I'm not exactly sure how to do this, but I figure a polite e-mail asking for consideration, along with a Steam code, can't hurt. Plus there are a few sites I've read for years (like IndieGames and Jay Is Games), so I do have a few in mind to start with.
I'm not going to do much of this, but there are a few places (like Football Outsiders) that have very inexpensive advertising rates. It won't cost much (under $500) to do a few test ads and see if anything happens.
Here's the cold, hard reality about marketing, and I wish someone had explained this to me: I have to be as methodical and patient about marketing the game as I was about making it. It could take years to develop a sizable player base.
On my side, though, the game isn't time-dependent in terms of content. Nothing will be obsolete six months from now.
Also on my side is that I am very, very patient.
Friday Links (supplemental)
Boy, this is a fascinating story: The Stubborn "Nail Houses" That Refuse to Get Demolished
From C. Lee, and this is both very funny and very true: Be Good To Each Other, Folks. Because This Could Happen.
Also, and this is a terrific idea: a translated fiction blog. See it here: Words Without Borders
. Next, and this is a wonderful story: Grandma and the jogger
. He's still going, and this story is discouraging: Is there a creativity deficit in science? If so, the current funding system shares much of the blame.
From Jeff Fowler, and this is entirely fantastic: The Most Symmetrical Objects in the World
From DQ Fitness Advisor Doug Walsh, and the link title says it all: Insane Blue Angels Footage Takes You Inside the Cockpit
From Eric Higgins-Freese, and the amount of time it took to create this must be staggering: Destiny Interactive Map
From Allen Varney, and fortunately, "A killer bear seeks Scotland's Loch Ness Monster" has been topped many times here: Summary Bug
From DQ Reader Me, and I find these paintings entirely wonderful: Cool paintings show the everyday life of a post-futuristic world
From Marc Klein, and I have no words, but this is a crazy read about a huge retirement village: Seven Days and Nights in the World's Largest, Rowdiest Retirement Community
From Guy Byars, and this is a heartbreaking, beautifully written opinion piece: When a Child Kills: Reflections on a Shooting Range Death, From One Who Knows
Gridiron Solitaire 1.2 is Live
Okay, the NFL season starts in three and a half hours, so I made it. Barely. For those of you who are playing the game, thanks very much and I hope you enjoy the new version. With custom difficulty, I think the game will be more accommodating to players of all skill levels.
Streets of Chaos
Derek DiBenedetto of SimProse Studios sent me a note that his new game, Streets of Chaos
, has just been released. Here's a description:
A unique strategy/board game hybrid where you become the leader of a rising resistance in a world gripped in crime and anarchy.
Recruit randomly generated members of your posse with 7 different stats forming their skills, equip them with weapons and armor and send them on missions of various types, hire lawyers, bribe judges, and more, all in a totally randomly generated world. Features full original music, an attractive and intuitive interface and tons of strategic options and paths to victory. Take over a randomly generated city using your gang, deal with vicious HQ attacks, make side deals with rival gang members, and more! No two games are ever the same.
I've played this, but because I've been working so hard on GS 1.2, my time with the game was less than an hour. However, I liked the interface and the board game feel, and there's a demo you can download. Just hit the link at the top of this post.
Carving Out The Light
Owen Faraday (of the indispensable Pocket Tactics
) put up a piece this week that I can only describe as masterful. It's an interview with Eric Sabee, who does the card art for Ascension, and it's a revealing and rewarding read (alliteration!). You can read it here: Carving out the light: Eric Sabee, the artist of Ascension’s weird, wonderful world
A Hall of Fame Kickstarter
If every Kickstarter I back from now until the end of time blows up, I don't care. It was worth it, to get this:
Yes, it's a two-volume, encyclopedic guide to Glorantha, Greg Stafford's wonderful and legendary fantasy world that was used as the setting for King of Dragon Pass
(which I have happily written about on many occasions).
The two volumes are 800 pages in total, and the art and information is absolutely stellar. Here are a few more images:
I was having a lousy day on Wednesday, then the doorbell rang. A minute or so later, Gloria carried in a box that was clearly quite heavy and said it was for me. A big smile broke out on my face, because I knew immediately what it was.
I knew this would be good--very good--but it's far, far exceeded my expectations.
Here's the funny thing: I don't think I've read a physical book in at least three years. It actually feels strange to hold the book in my hands instead of a tablet!
Why the exclamation point? Keep reading.
[I'm listening to Rodriguez's album Cold Fact
while I write this. I demand you purchase this album immediately, as it is one of the greatest albums of its or any time.]
I went for my eye checkup today.
I always dread this, because getting your eyes dilated is a giant pain in the butt. Driving home with black sunglasses because your eyes are so sensitive to light, not being able to work for a few hours, and just the general strange feeling in your eyes is definitely not anywhere on my bucket list.
Today, though, it was completely different.
My ophthalmologist had a new device called "Optomap". It's a machine that takes an ultra-high resolution picture of your eye.
Previously, the standard technique your ophthalmologist would use involved seeing your eye in sections. My doctor said it was like using a flashlight to look in a darkened room. He saw a 10%, rectangular slit of my eye, then he had to move the "flashlight" to another section. Plus, all these sections were upside down as he viewed them. So to get a complete picture of the eye, he had to visually assemble ten different images in his mind. It was as much art as science, and he said it takes quite a lot of experience to do it well.
Now, though, he can see the eye in one image, at a higher resolution. And he can even separate the image by layers.
Here's the picture he took of my right eye:
He could zoom in on any part of this image and see it in much greater detail. It was amazing, and he even showed me a few pictures of eyes with macular degeneration. He also said there were two kinds of macular degeneration--"dry" and "wet". "Wet" degeneration is caused by leaking blood vessels, and there's a treatment for that now that is remarkably effective. Since it's new blood vessels that are leaking, a drug is used to stop those new blood vessels from forming.
Great, right? Well, here's the downside: it requires a monthly injection. Into your eye. Agghhhhh.
Even with this new technology, there are certain situations where dilation is still required, but it wasn't for me, and walking out of my appointment much sooner than normal, without pupils the size of basketballs, was a real pleasure. So if your eye doctor has this available, you might want to check it out.
Oh, and I took a picture of a poster in his office that shows images of different types of eye diseases as seen through Optomap images. You'll need to click to enlarge, but it's very cool (sorry for the reflections):
You can also do a Google image search on "Optomap" and see all kinds of interesting images.
Eli 13.1 and the Leveling Tournament
I know, I haven't finished Detroit yet, but the leveling tournament was last weekend and it's fresh in my mind.
Before we left for Detroit, Eli found out that he was going to be on the second team this year, not the first. The two kids chosen ahead of him are both 50+ pounds bigger than he is, and they're both very good.
Are they better? I don't think they are, but like I said, they're very good. Eli is immediately at a disadvantage against them in a tryout situation, though, because they look very imposing, and he doesn't. He's a technician, and he's unbelievably quick, but he's not big.
This happens quite a bit down here, with team composition constantly changing, because we don't have birth year teams. So one of the goalies is a year older than Eli, but since Eli moved up to Bantam, they're in the same age group for a year.
In good news, though, the other goalie on Eli's team moved here from Indiana, and he's both an excellent goalie and a terrific kid, so they're quite a funny pair together. Plus, Eli likes the kids on his team. Some of his best friends are on the team with him, and that's great.
The tough part is that about half the team is made up of the better House kids, which means--for now--they're quite a bit behind the existing travel kids in terms of skating ability and general skills. The coaching staff is phenomenal, really first-rate, and I think kids will improve very quickly, but for now, our defense is very leaky.
At the leveling tournament, they throw every Bantam team, regardless of whether they want to play in "A" or "B" league, into the same group. We're a low to mid-B team right now (we'll get better, like I said), and Eli's two games last weekend were against a high "A" team (that finished second out of nineteen teams), and another team that is a mid-A team.
This represents an enormous difference in team levels. And our defense, for now, isn't good.
Eli faced 113 shots in two games. We had 15 shots.
If you're wondering, 70 shots in two games would be "a lot". Plus, these were quality shots from very, very strong teams, because we don't have good defensive coverage yet, so guys were often left wide open.
We lost 6-0 and 5-1. I don't think I've ever been more proud of him.
He made far superior teams scratch and claw for every goal. The second game, in particular, was the best technical game he's ever had, because every shot was either trapped for a faceoff or directed safely into a corner. Zero rebounds in scoring position on 52 shots.
He gave up 11 goals, and every one was the result of a major defensive lapse on our part that gave the other team a shot from point-blank range.
Never got upset with his defense. Kept encouraging guys, directing them, working with them. And even though our skill level is limited right now, they played hard in front of him. Very hard. And we're going to be good, eventually.
Both games felt like wins, staying so close to far superior teams.
All summer, Eli has been doing an extremely difficult off-ice workout two days a week (in addition to all the other activity he gets). And it paid off big-time, because in both games, he was as strong at the end as he was at the start. Never got worn down, even with all that frozen rubber flying.
We didn't talk much about it, because his level is so high now that he wasn't surprised. He just played like he expected himself to play. While we were in a convenience store getting drinks after the last game, though, I put my arm around him and said, "That was very, very tall. Strong and tall."
I didn't need to say anything else.
A Fine Film
Our DirecTV receiver is old and very slow.
Yesterday, I was scrolling through the Program Guide, and it was going to slowly that the description of movies sometimes overlapped. The first sentence of the guide was describing one movie, while the other sentences were describing another movie entirely.
I believe this can successfully be used as a random plot generator, because for a moment, I saw this:
A killer bear seeks Scotland's Loch Ness Monster.
That movie would be day one, appointment viewing for me.
DQ Film Advisor and Nicest Guy in the World Ben Ormand, please feel free to use this idea whenever you can secure funding.